Each day upon awaking I must prepare for battle
I hear the snake hissing as he slithers and he rattles
There is a bad seed planted in the darkest corners of my mind
A past that is most haunting and it is trailing close behind
I am my own worst enemy and my thoughts are a disease
The only way to fix this is by getting on my knees
Asking God to help me the moment I arise
Because my disease will try to kill me when I open up my eyes
I have to fight against myself and it’s a battle I could lose
But there is a better way of life but it’s hard sometimes to choose
Everything inside of me wants to run away
But there is a part of me that knows I need to stay
I can’t outrun myself and there is no escape
And when I don’t know where to go there are 12 steps I can take
My brain says I can’t do this and no one believes in me
That I should just call it quits and live in misery
My brain says no one loves me or cares if I live or die
But my heart says don’t believe it and God tells me that’s a lie
My life is complicated and it’s so hard to explain
I don’t do well with feelings or even going though real pain
I used to pray every day for my life to just be over
Now I thank my higher power for just one more day I’m sober
I didn’t ask to be an alcoholic and my purpose is unsure
I have the disease of addiction and for that there is no cure
But there is a way for me to filter all pollution
And that is to stay connected and to focus on solutions
